Michelle describes how her relationship with her mother has improved, along with her mental health and physical health.
Tags: Anxiety; Compassion; Depression; Digestion; Emotional trauma; Family; Fatigue; Grateful for AIM; Guilt; Insight; Intuition; Relationship; Shame;
The first change I noticed took place in my relationship with my mother. We have always had a close but strained relationship. Out of nowhere, instead of feeling the usual guilt ridden obligation to call her so as to avoid derogatory comments to my faithfulness and devotion as a daughter, I actually had a true authentic desire to stay in touch. In addition, I found that we could discuss everything and anything without having to worry about saying something that would offend the other. Furthermore, when discussing past traumas between us, the conversation never deterred into a place of blame or resentment, instead we were both capable of sharing our perspective in a constructive, detached and healthy way. For me this was so unexpected, something I had long ago given up on and just accepted. I am thrilled to have discovered a friend with whom I have so much in common.
I especially found fascinating the de-layering process in self-healing with the AIM Program. For example when healing fatigue and depression I first really saw how much anxiety I have been saturated in. Once the anxiety cleared I became aware of how much energy I had spent trying to please people. In every area from relationships to career, I had spent so much time trying to fulfill their expectations of me.
Next came extreme shame and guilt and when I thought it could not get any worse I experienced and saw the root layer; a feeling of complete meaninglessness and lack of life purpose. It was then that I saw the whole picture and it all began to make sense. For whatever reason I had responded to a life situation with a belief that life for me had no meaning and that I had no life purpose. To this I reacted in shame and then to deal with the shame I tried to at least fulfill other people's sense of purpose to cover my lack of it. I t was of course impossible to please them, I constantly felt I was failing and letting someone down, and anxiety followed.
This process brought me so much insight into the human psyche. As a result I have gained so much compassion for myself and for people around me. I find myself really seeing people and their complexity with a loving compassion and understanding for their plight without judgment or the feeling that they should just get it right or try harder. I notice that pain and suffering are really just a result of not being connected to the whole.
Along with moving through all these layers, I have witnessed my digestion issues completely transform, my craving for sugar disappear, my intuitive ability develop to the point where I actually receive clips and pictures of the past lives that lie behind the core layers and the list goes on. I am forever grateful to everyone at EMC² for making the AIM Program available to the public. My life is becoming a dream come true. Thank you.
Michelle from Christchurch, New Zealand
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